Day 13- favorite musician and why... :)

well, my all time FAVORITE musician is Eminem.. Marshall Mathers.. slim shady.. rabbit.. whatever you know him as <3 he is the best.. he is a lyrical genius.

yeah, eminem swears alot, he talks about his ex-wife in violent ways.. but at least he doesn't only rap and swear about money, cars, drugs, alcohol & girls. hes had a tough life, and he doesn't make up the shit he speaks.
he has good reasons behind the words he says, they all have meaning.
he shows and sings about how important Hailie, his daughter is to him, which is great.

the movie 8 mile is one of the most inspirational movies of all time, it shows you how you could start with nothing, and be so successful in life and become something great, as long as you fight and believe. he didn't have a supporting family, he took care of his family, he kept it together.. his little sister, Lilly, wouldn't have made it this far.. without eminem.

eminem is my all time favorite singer, because hes different. i always hated any type of rap music, i found it so pointless.. until i heard eminem, there's just something about him that always catches my attention. i know he may not be a good role model because of the words he speaks, but he is my life, my inspiration. he is absolutely amazing, and i love him, i am his number one fan.

Day 3 - a perfect date... (:

Well for a perfect date, your loved one.. in my case boyfriend., should take you some place nice.
it could be anywhere actually, but if a guy takes you to a fast food restaurant for the first date, yeahhhhhh, bye. hes not worth it.. he's just showing how much he doesn't care. my ideal date would be simple, just time together with the one you  like... a walk on the beach.. waterfront.. even a movie.. and walk home. I'm okay with anything, I'm not one of those girls who want everything and anything. i just don't believe a guy should take you to a mcdees or something like that to show his love.. if he does, his love isn't worth it. ha ha. anyways, as my day 3 blog, i hope this fits in with it..

& my ideal date would be quite simple, i don't ask for much <3

true facts. :s

If you dress nicely, he says you're a snob. If you dress sexy, he says you're a slut. If you argue with him, he says you're stubborn. If you're quiet, he says you're stupid. If you call him, he says you're needy and clingy. If he calls you, he says you should be grateful. If you don't love him, he'll try to win you. If you love him, he'll leave you. If you don't fuck him, he'll say you don't love him. If you do, he'll say you're easy. If you tell him your problems, he'll say you're irritating. If you don't , he'll say you don't trust him. If you lecture him, he'll say you're bitchy. If he lectures you, it's because he "cares". If you break a promise, you can't be trusted. If he breaks it, he had to. If you cheat, he'll expect it to be over. If he cheats, he expects to be given another chance either way.

& how many of you have felt this way ? 

Broken Hearted.. thoughts and pains.

This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this... 

Written by unknown. i was looking on the internet for love/broken hearted quotes (having a bad day)  and this popped up.. it caught my attention because its true.. </3 
iloveyou. 

Fall for you <\3

To whoever the hell I am gonna be stupid enough to fall for,

I hope you understand how valuable my heart is. If you intend on hurting me, go ahead and run the other way. Don't try to talk to me, just run. If you love me, I want you to tell me, but even more SHOW IT. Looking at other girls isn't loving me, its lusting after them. Don't play games with me, games are called Candy Land & Solitaire. Games are for 5 year old's. I hope I never fall for a stupid, inconsiderate, loser..I hopee thiss guyyy is the onee :s . 

<3

Day 1 - a photo of youself and what you did today.. :)

                                                           
                                                              This is me:) <3

Kay well, today my day was kinda bleh. i slept over at a friends house.. and we went to a fair that was at place vertu mall. the fair was lame... lol well to me anyways, cause im a chicken and wouldnt go on the scary rides. there were these little games where you can win stuffed animals.. and the guy who was hosting it looked like eminem! im in love with eminem, so i wasted my time there loosing my money.. cause i couldnt win haha. Theee guy wass soo hottt, and he was halping me play ;)
lol, anyways, after the fair i came home, and now i am completing some homework :)
hehe <3

30 day challenge thingyy (:

Day 1 – A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.
Day 2 – A photo of something you ate today.
Day 3 – Your idea of the perfect first date.
Day 4 – Your favorite photograph of your best friend.
Day 5 – A photo of yourself two years ago.
Day 6 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.
Day 7 – Your dream wedding.
Day 8 – A song to match your mood.
Day 9 – A photo of the item you last purchased.
Day 10 – A photo of our favorite place to eat.
Day 11 – What’s in your makeup bag?
Day 12 – A photograph of the town you live in.
Day 13 – Your favorite musician and why?
Day 14 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.
Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without.
Day 16 – Your celebrity crush.
Day 17 – A photo of you and your family.
Day 18 – Something you crave a lot.
Day 19 – Another picture of yourself.
Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name.
Day 21 – A photo of something that makes you happy.
Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.
Day 23 – 15 facts about you.
Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you.
Day 25 – What’s in your purse?
Day 26 – A photo of somewhere you’ve been to.
Day 27 – A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?
Day 28 – Your favorite movie.
Day 29 – Something you could never get tired of doing.
Day 30 – A photograph of yourself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days
 got thiss ideaa froom Fefeee <3 :) i hopee shee dosentt mind :)

If life was a fairytaleee

If life was a fairytale..
Don't we all wish life was a fairytale
to get swept off of our feet
falling in love?
where the guy of your dreans
is next to you..
always, loving you..
where you werent scared to be you..
where you were open with eachother
telling them your dreams and wishes
with him, they come true

He's with you ever second,
every hour of the day
wanting you in his arms
to comfort you..
to hold you, through the good & the bad
The pain & the tears..
the joy..
everything & anything
he wants you
for who you are
he's the fairytale guy..
that any girl wants in life
but i guess we have to live with what we have
because, life isnt & never will..
be a fairytale..
so stop wishing.. for nothing :s


I was bored in math class today and decided to write this poem..
yeah it dosent really ryme.. but it was just on my mind..
guys will never be EVERYTHING, keep that in mind..
be grateful for what you have..
and dont have any regrets, because at the time it was everything you ever wanted..

a While ago.. Memories..

A few months ago, i wrote this poem.. about the same guy i talked about in the last post.. its not my best poem, but it was done quickly.. its called "Bother's Me"

Knowing i had such a great guy in my life who cared and knew what i wanted and how i felt.. bother's me..
walking through the halls at school, watching him with another girl, bother's me..
Knowing he could have been the best thing in my life, the way he held me tight..
and how he comferted me.. brings back to many memories..
now i watch him love another girl, it kills me.
I Know it's to late..
but i still hope he will change his mind, i know i lost my chance..
I Know how you felt when you saw me with him, how he treated me and all the shit he put me through..
has it ever occured to you that i did it because i knew you had another girl.. 
i had completly nothing to lose, watching her all over you.
You know what, you're just like the rest..
i honestly never imagined we end like this, i never thought we would have a last kiss,,,
So i guess ill just end this, now.
I know i messed up bad, you were in my mind the best i ever had..
i miss you.

Himm..

Have you ever felt like you love a guy, but you don't want to push anything.


He has another girl.. she prettier then me.. smarter then me.. & he likes that.
I Lost him. for good.


Why do i care? he has her now, the beautiful..girl.. who has everything any girl wants in life.
it bothers me because i lost a chance, i truly wanted. 


2 months later..
Things changed, he says he loves me.. but maybe his "extra curricular activities" are more important to him.. Am i really worth it? 


we had and have a very strong connection.. we have so much in common, we understand each other, i don't...i Can't lose him.. my life... will be over.

I Love Him, I believe i'm in love with him. i don't want to get hurt again, i'm not strong enough, anymore.

I'm scared he is losing feelings for me..
I used to be embarrassed to say i loved him, but now the world can know.. I love him. & i messed up.
i feel like i lost him..  Where did he go? 


i wantt him too know, that i will always have this feeling for him, & even if he dosent think the same, hes will always be in my memories.. <3 

My Besstt Friend (:

    

Grade Three was a long time ago, but that's when i met my best friend Ceisha..  i then knew i had a friend to keep. we have so many bitch fits.. but it works out in the end cause we understand eacother cause were best friends.. the quote below is so true in our lives we have so many "remember whens", so many inside jokes and so many eye tearing moments; grade 10 has been a rough year for me.. in many different ways.... stood there when i needed a shoulder to cry on, a hug.. someone to just be there when I'm fighting for something. yeah maybe i haven't been the BEST Friend to ceisha, but I'm Trying super hard to make it up to her, cause she deserves much More, lol (:

even though she might have been annoyed with me, or had enough of my attitude.. she was still there. ceisha brought my confidence up, i was so self conscious.. and insecure about myself but being best friends with a weirdo its hard not to be yourself, i learnt not to be ashamed of myself or my looks. Ceisha is basically part of my family, i don't have to ask for her to sleep over, i just bring her home.. simple as that. my mom loves ceisha as another daughter. & treats her like another daughter.. ceisha is probably reading this right now and prob saying whats up with this chick. but when you have a friend stay with you for this long, you know there a true friend. Grade 10, was probably a year that brought us closer, because we got to see the true attitude.. ha ha that sounds weird. 

& ceisha i just want you to know that.. even thought i have my moments.. well we both do ;p lol  

I'm here for you Forever... no questions asked. you need me at 3 am, ill be There. thank you for putting up with me throughout everything. & that jerk.. even though I'm still putting up with him, I'm happy that's your supporting me even thought you don't want to. Thank youuu (L)

iloveyousooomuchhh BestesttFrienddd (L) <3 (:

ALEXXXXX, THE KID IS CALLING!!

Be Yourself, Nothing More...

 kay well, in my eyes you should be who you are and nothing more, your beautiful which ever way you look. Skinny People think they are fat.. fat people think there obese and obese people think there super models, have you ever noticed that ?
i used to think i was the biggest person ever, until all my friends, and myself realized.. im not fat, im just healty. the picture above shows a girl, who is anerexic and thinks she is huge.. many people in todays society are like this, its not right. those models, singers and actresses.. who look like pencils.. to you,  are they really pretty in your eyes? too me they look like a peice of paper, they are forced to look like this, and people want to look just like them..
we watch shows and movies with all these so called "good-looking" females.. yeah they may have the body, but are they healty? Today all guys want is the looks, the body.. they dont look what you have inside, they just want whatever you'll give them. i learned this lesson.. and its hard for me.. but guys are immature and jerks.. size shouldnt matter.
i dont believe you should force yourself too look a certain way to impress a boy, so you should just be yourself, if he dosent like you, well to bad for him, right ? :|


& i just wanted to write this, because i believe your perfect whichever way you you are. its the inner baeuty that counts. fk the asses, who just want that "perfect" body, somebody out there will appriciate you, and not just your looks.

Laaauuraaah is a elepant (:

Khaaaaaaay so as youu knoooww Lauraaah is a elepant (:
Sheees a retard that has no life , no friends except me and ceiishaa (:
owwweee weee jusstt had a slappingg fight :P
Khaaaaay soo she loves meeeh hahahah :P
Anyywaaays Emilyy was here and loves you to death (: <3

Randomm :) :$

 I Decided To Post this picture because it is my screen name.  and i thought i should put a picture to represent it. And i think this picture means a lot,  I Believe there is a sign towards the bench which is waiting, im doing alot of that right now :$.  Most Of my blogs may be blaaah too you, but i'm just getting started, so i hope in the future it catches your attention.  (: xoxo

Forget Him, Forget Everything :$

I love This Poem so much, because its true.. well true in my life that is..
Boys are stupid, and immature.. don't we wish they'd grow up ?
anyways, as my second blog, i thought id post this..

-He Is gone Forever <|3

My First Time Here (:

Well, One of my great friends Felicia, Known as Fefe... Always spent her time in media class on this site and i began to find it interesting, so i thought i would give it a try. I Don't Know what the readers want, or even if people are reading this... so im not sure on what to right on this first blog, so don't judge :)  This is a good website to waste time on during media arts class, cause our teacher is crazy, and we have annoying kids in our class :@ lol.