If life was a fairytaleee

If life was a fairytale..
Don't we all wish life was a fairytale
to get swept off of our feet
falling in love?
where the guy of your dreans
is next to you..
always, loving you..
where you werent scared to be you..
where you were open with eachother
telling them your dreams and wishes
with him, they come true

He's with you ever second,
every hour of the day
wanting you in his arms
to comfort you..
to hold you, through the good & the bad
The pain & the tears..
the joy..
everything & anything
he wants you
for who you are
he's the fairytale guy..
that any girl wants in life
but i guess we have to live with what we have
because, life isnt & never will..
be a fairytale..
so stop wishing.. for nothing :s


I was bored in math class today and decided to write this poem..
yeah it dosent really ryme.. but it was just on my mind..
guys will never be EVERYTHING, keep that in mind..
be grateful for what you have..
and dont have any regrets, because at the time it was everything you ever wanted..

a While ago.. Memories..

A few months ago, i wrote this poem.. about the same guy i talked about in the last post.. its not my best poem, but it was done quickly.. its called "Bother's Me"

Knowing i had such a great guy in my life who cared and knew what i wanted and how i felt.. bother's me..
walking through the halls at school, watching him with another girl, bother's me..
Knowing he could have been the best thing in my life, the way he held me tight..
and how he comferted me.. brings back to many memories..
now i watch him love another girl, it kills me.
I Know it's to late..
but i still hope he will change his mind, i know i lost my chance..
I Know how you felt when you saw me with him, how he treated me and all the shit he put me through..
has it ever occured to you that i did it because i knew you had another girl.. 
i had completly nothing to lose, watching her all over you.
You know what, you're just like the rest..
i honestly never imagined we end like this, i never thought we would have a last kiss,,,
So i guess ill just end this, now.
I know i messed up bad, you were in my mind the best i ever had..
i miss you.

Himm..

Have you ever felt like you love a guy, but you don't want to push anything.


He has another girl.. she prettier then me.. smarter then me.. & he likes that.
I Lost him. for good.


Why do i care? he has her now, the beautiful..girl.. who has everything any girl wants in life.
it bothers me because i lost a chance, i truly wanted. 


2 months later..
Things changed, he says he loves me.. but maybe his "extra curricular activities" are more important to him.. Am i really worth it? 


we had and have a very strong connection.. we have so much in common, we understand each other, i don't...i Can't lose him.. my life... will be over.

I Love Him, I believe i'm in love with him. i don't want to get hurt again, i'm not strong enough, anymore.

I'm scared he is losing feelings for me..
I used to be embarrassed to say i loved him, but now the world can know.. I love him. & i messed up.
i feel like i lost him..  Where did he go? 


i wantt him too know, that i will always have this feeling for him, & even if he dosent think the same, hes will always be in my memories.. <3